As my nonexistent italian relatives might say....CRAPOLA

So I sorta kinda blew my diet yesterday....ok lets face it...I REALLY blew my diet.

Since this is a diet blog, I will not be mentioning food that might tempt but it all started with a simple $&*@&!^*@#. Now my prob with cigs, booze, any time of addictive thing is that once I've had one *(&%(*#&@ I somehow think I might as well have another. The prob is that then I start having this wierd desire to stuff myself/drink till I can't anymore/smoke myself silly. It's not like I was enjoying the food I ate...I just ate (not all at once but just throughout the day).

On the bright side, I've never gone a whole month without going off the diet at least once. So today I've started again and, hopefully, will last 1+ months again!

I'm also grumpy because they changed the class schedules at my gym. Now my pilates/yoga/tai chi class thingy is at 11:30 instead of 10:15. Last week, I got to do my class and then watch Dancelife on MTV while I walked the treadmill afterwards (I don't have tv at home so I can only watch when I work out). Now there is a conflict so I guess (after checking the tv schedules) I'll be stuck watching I Love New York on VH1 instead.

Anyways, I'm pretty proud of myself for jumping back on the bandwagon but I did gain 2 pounds overnight. EEK!

Back on track

Kat

My current weight and other anomalies

I have decided to switch over to reporting my official Jenny Craig approved weight. This weight is higher because it is taken on a different scale with more clothes on and after eating breakfast and drinking 1-2 bottles of water. And so we will enter a little weight warp zone where someone weighing 264 can lose 2 pounds and yet weigh in at 266.8.

This weight warp zone has also led to goal weight inconsistencies which confound my understanding of how far away my goal may be. My Jenny Craig consultant says 140 but the exercise physiologist at my gym says I'd be dead at that weight because my lean body mass is 132. I figure my lean body mass is not a fixed entity so I have decided to wait and see...

1 month anny

So yesterday marked my 1 month anniversary on Jenny Craig. When I quit smoking we labeled each month that we stuck to the program as an anniversary and, since food is even more addictive to me than ciggs ever were, I think I'll apply that tradition to my diet as well.

I lost2.1 pounds last week. Total loss this month: 13.2. But the thing that blew me away was that I lost 6 inches from my bust,waist, hips, and abdomen! They gave me a 6 inch string to put on my keychain.

So I am officially a size 20 now!

color me happy

Kat

Another fat cat...

my cat had to get shaved today because I always forget to groom her.

She looks like one of those hairless cats.

she is actually really adorable with the cut but I have now noticed that I am not the only one in this family with a weight problem. Looks like it's diet kitty food time...

in other news, things were so hectic at school that I actually didn't get to eat all of my food today. I know that is sposed to be bad but I weigh in tomorrow so maybe it'll show some promising scale movement!

my abs still hurt but I worked out anyways: 25 minutes on the treadmill (ave speed 3.1/ave incline .9%). I saw an exercise physiologist last week and she told me I had to take it easy and not allow my pulse up past 135 because I was getting "mildly hypertensive" when I went up 154 (80% of my maximum) so I had to really tone down my cardio.

I meet with a trainer on thursday to discuss adding weights into my regimen. I'm a little nervous about this because you rarely see extremely obese people with personal trainers for some reason...hopefully she'll be nice...at least she's a she...

off to bed

goodnite people who live in my journal

Kat

*ouch*

Today was hard. I went to this pilates/yoga/tai chi compilation class yesterday and my abs are KILLING me. I never realized how much I use my abs during every day activities until now. I'm laying in bed and I can barely move. Everytime I have to get up I sort of slither off my bed wincing the whole time. I'm also inexplicably exhausted (and I'm on a well balanced, 1700 cal a day diet so I sure aint starving) but all I want to do is eat...go figure. I think I'm going to make it without going off my diet because I still have another fruit, some BBQ pita chips (I'm on Jenny Craig), and 1 cup of milk left to eat and I'm only staying up a few more hours. I'm just glad I made it through the day!

(wow...that is so not my time zone...I'll have to change that someday...)

UPDATE: Something worse than being woken up with an asthma attack at 4:21 AM? Having an asthma attack when every cough aggravates your sore abs...I feel like I'm suffocating...

Intro

This was me at 312 pounds:












<--- I lost 50 (and got a better camera)((that's my cat, Chloe))

Then I gained 20, lost those 20....you get the picture. Now I'm trying to get back on track.

Current weight: 264