Happy dance

I lost weight this week! Current weight=261.7
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Better

Ok, I'm feeling more optimistic. I think I've at least lost something this week. We will see tomorrow.

However, at 9:30 AM, I have already eaten all of the substancial food that I brought with me today. This food was meant to last me till 10 PM.

I'm stressed because my first biochem test is tomorrow and this prof's tests have a reputation for being absolute hell with very little curve to compensate. At least in organic we had a curve. Add to that the fact that I have much less CHem background than the other students (most have taken both P-chems already)((It didn't say that was a pre-req so I was kinda surprised)) and I'm kinda skeert. In my world this usually translates to: I have been stress eating. I ate an egg, sausage patty, half of an english muffin, jenny craig blueberry muffin, 1 cup of nonfat milk, 1 vitamin bar, and my unsweetened applesauce, chicken salad, and wheat crackers that I brought for lunch. That is a lot of food to have eaten in the past three hours,no?

Anyways, 4 pieces of fruit, a salad, and veggies are all I get to eat for the rest of the day. I may not be perfect but I'll do my best. At least I'm stuffed right now...

Valentine Blues

I'm bummed. Why can't I consistently lose weight like a normal person? It's not even "that time" so I can't blame it on that.

Diet is going well.

I drank my h20 and ate veggies yesterday but one whole wheat english muffin with a tsp of margarine and 1 oz of lowfat cheese did leap into my mouth accidentally/on purpose...How DARE it? I feel so violated. But I don't feel like that was so bad. It's not like I ate fries or something. There was some nutritional goodness in that excess snack.

I had a hardcore 90 minute workout today and I have almost drunk all my water already. On workout days I am trying for 10 glasses instead of the normal 8.

I woke up this morning on the wrong side of the bed and have been extra grumbly about this whole weight gain thing. It's not like I've been dieting for many months now...it has only been 1 1/2 (there had been a 2 year hiatus since I lost the first 40 lbs or so.) I'd better not be plateau-ed already that would make baby jesus cry.

Tonight is Valentine's Day and I have no clue what to expect. Being a chronic fat girl, I have never been in a relationship on this day before (yes that makes 29 years of singledom...with brief romances that just never feel during this season...)
My man is not particularly romantic (neither am I) and he is also broke. However, he did mention being particularly strapped for cash this month which makes the little romantic archetype inside want to jump out and say...are you finally getting me an engagement ring????

I am making him a very fattening meal because I have learned the hard way that his mid west/southern upbringing does not mesh with the Bostonian style of cooking that I have been raised on. He is very picky and only eats about 10 things so the choices were limited. But here is the menu:
Honey Battered Chicken fingers
Homestyle mashed Potatoes
Carrots with margarine
Strawberry Shortcake

This meal simultaneously makes me drool and makes my arteries want to choke to death but so be it. As Spaghetti Monster as my witness I will only eat the strawberries and carrots and will have my jenny craig meal as my main course.

However, I did kinda sorta decide some splurges were ok on Vday when I saw the chocolate marker thingies at Spencers. If you don't know what I'm talking bout dont ask...

Well, after wasting my day to exercise and tutoring other people on Physics, I think I'll go home. MCAT/Biochem study is gonna have to wait.

Peace and weight loss (pleeze?)

blar di blar

I gained 0.4 pounds. My consultant says I'm not eating enough. So I am gaining weight by not eating. Now THAT's talent. My goals this week: drink my friggin water and eat my frigging veggies.

blar

impatient

I don't think I lost this week...I'll find out tomorrow morning but my scale aint showing it. I did so well...ok so there was a brief bout with two froo froo martinis at Dave and Busters but that's it! And I worked my butt off in the gym all week. On Saturday, I did a 3 hour workout. 3 f'in hours!!! But if I'm going to make it all the way to goal, I've got to get better at dealing with weeks like this. In the past, these weeks would be my undoing...I would say "look how hard I'm working and where are my results?" And then I would go off and binge because what's the point of being on a diet that ain't working?

My doc said "if you are eating less than you are burning then its' only a matter of time before you lose". But damnit I'm just not a patient person.

The one thing that I am doing this time that I think will keep me from being disheartened is that I have a rewards system based on how well I followed the plan and not how much weight I lose. So I get my manicure next week regardless of whether I lose. At least I can look forward to that.

Weigh in

Yesterday, I weighed in at 262.4 which is like a 2 1/2 pound loss from last week! WOOHOO

I'm trying to get back into the gym habit after the week off when my fam was in town. Yesterday I did 90 minutes of cardio (30 of those minutes were really just a slow stroll while I caught the end of Made. It was such a cute episode about a geeky boy who wants to be prom prince. I love geeks. THey rock.=0)
Today, I did 24 minutes on the Treadmill, 10 minutes on the elliptical, 5 minutes of stretching, and then I did my weight lifting regimen. So I did about 90 minutes again.

One thing I've noticed is how great I feel after I work out. The endorphins in my system not only fill me with energy but they also make me feel HOT! LOL A pic of me would surely bring me back to reality but I walk around feeling like the hottest chick in the room for an hour or so after I finish.

The main barrier I have to get over when motivating myself to exercise is the sheer time factor. It usually takes me about 2 1/2 to 3 hours at the gym to get through my routine, shower, and get ready. That's a *%$#load of time.

I guess super busy peeps who still work out just don't shower afterwards? ew

I was in the gym with my SO the other day and I asked him if he was going to shower. His response? "I don't need to cause I showered this morning." I've never really thought of myself as a clean freak but when I'm in the gym I don't glisten...I sweat! And there is no way I am walking around all day with greasy sweaty hair. I guess it makes more sense for him because he has a buzz cut but still...

Kat

25?

So I saw a number on the scale yesterday and today (in the completely unofficial nekkid/early morning/no food or drink in my system sort of way).

It started with a 2. I've gotten used to this number. But then came a 5!!!
I have not seen a 5 in the tens place in, well, 5 years actually.

I am always finding new types milestones in the mundane numbers that pass by. So now I have to project foreward, as is often my style.

When I hit 239, I will be at a weight I haven't seen in 7 years.

When I hit 199...well that's a milestone in and of itself but...I will weigh less than I did on my 21st bday. (8 years ago)

When I hit 187, that is the weight I remember being at the end of freshmen year. (10 years ago)

When I hit 179, I will be the weight I was senior year of HS.

165=what I weighed Freshmen and Sophmore year. I don't know if I had achieved my full height freshman year but by Sophmore year I had. (yes, I thought I was fat even then.)((but at least I could always get a date))(((It should be noted that I met my SO 1 year ago...so...apparently I can get dates at this size too now.)))

My goal will probably be in the 150s. I don't think I have ever been this weight at my full height. We'll see when we get there. Now I have to think about ways of celebrating these milestones!


Kat

Family

Wow! I haven't posted in a while. I went to my meeting on tuesday and I actually lost 1.9 pounds. But my consultant said that sometimes being "bad" one week doesn't affect the scales until the week after. We shall see.

My fam has been in town and that has made it difficult to stay on my plan. However, I fared pretty well (with the exception of one skittles incident). I was actually quite surprised by how much my willpower has improved. They ate donuts, pie, blondies, ice cream, fries, really fattening salads and soups etc. I just ate my plain salads and fruit and sipped on my h2o and was fine! I did "taste test" a few things but I only had a small bite.

Current weight: 264.9